I have always wanted to be able to draw, really desperately wanted to be able to draw. My best friend growing up is an artist (who now works for the Kostler Trust), and when we flat shared in Brixton she was doing a MA in Fine Art at St Martins. I even have a tattoo which she drew.
However, as an adult I have always been rather scared of drawing, in fact on one memorable occasion I have been outdrawn in Pictionary by a 5 year old. Which really didn’t help my feelings of inadequacy.
So, I focused on writing, mainly factual based, nothing as creative as fiction! I have written case studies, articles (which has been published in magazines under others’ names. The joys of working in PR! Websites and lots and lots of blog posts all over the place not to mention huge amounts of marketing collateral.
A couple of years ago I started to dabble in photography, even going as far as buying a DSLR, but I felt it was far too much of a statement and obtrusive using a DLSR when I didn’t feel confident in what I was doing. So now I use my iPhone and a Canon Powershot compact, which is a powerful little camera and will do me well for a couple of years at least. I do have a Flikr account, but I haven’t as yet shared that here, mainly as I only set it up to take part in a creative photography online course and I wanted to be able to share the results in a safe space, without worrying about judgement.
But still, the idea of being able just to pick up a pen and a pad and draw has always stayed with me as something I really want to be able to do. A few years ago I got The Creative Licence and spent a summer drawing a little picture everyday and I really enjoyed it.
But I soon fell out of the habit and never got any further with it. I love Danny Gregory’s style – that watercolour which isn’t too precise, the colours and the sheer joy of his work. I took solace in the fact that he only really got into drawing when he was older. And so, when he said he was opening up Sketchbook Skool I decided to take the plunge and jump far, far outside of my comfort zone. Way, way out of it in fact. This is a six week online learning course with different artists all showing different styles and techniques.
On Friday I start this course. I am excited and very, very nervous about starting this, but I am also hopeful it will help me look at the world in a whole new light. I won’t be sharing any of my drawings here, I want to focus on learning and more than anything getting through the very critical ‘inner critic’ with regards to drawing, sketching and painting. This may turn out to be a hideous disaster of an idea, but at least I will have given it ago and quenched my curiosity – with regards to this at any rate.